Thursday, August 20, 2015

What is My Stone? Throwing Stones for Christ

The Bible tells us that each of us is here to fulfill a purpose. For some, this purpose is found easily while others walk around delirious their whole life feeling like they never found their purpose. I would say that I stack up on the latter end. I have often wondered why I'm here and where my journey will lead. I've often times felt like I was just "Keeping up with the Jones'" as the ole saying goes. I have also often times felt like my journey will end in disaster because, well, some folks don't see me as good enough because my family doesn't attend Church.

The South can be a rude and cruel place sometimes ... especially when you throw the grounds of religion in there. I'm not saying all places, but some. The little tight-nit communities where everyone knows everyone's business can turn ugly if you are an outsider trying to find a place where you feel welcomed. I have been to churches that as soon as you leave the doors, folks are talking smack! That's not my main focus in the blog post, so let's move away from that - I just wanted to state a point about the days and times we live in.

I have never felt like I belonged. Anywhere. Especially not church. I'm often times shotty-at-the-mouth towards my husband and son. I say things I don't mean. A lot of times I think this world would be a better place without me. I feel alone a lot. I feel like people don't love me. I feel like I'm the ultimate butt-of-all jokes. I think I have spent a good chunk of my life feeling worthless! Everything I have ever poured my heart into eventually gets stripped away from me. I guess you can say my life has been a bunch of bad luck situations.

I do feel, at times, that God is trying to pull me towards something good. I have tried to follow the Bible, but I just don't understand it. I have tried to love without resentment and trust in good things only to find the bad. That's not God's fault though. That's just our world and that mean ole devil I speak of so much. He doesn't want to lead us like God does - he pushes us into the fire. Some of us he has to drag kicking and screaming. Me, though, I think he smiles and I'm so weak and leery that I instantly fall in love with the idea that whatever sin he is placing in front of me is the right answer. I think it holds the truth so I veer off my path, and eventually, I hit the wall ... HARD!

Present Day:

I always listen to a local country radio station in the mornings when I take Logan to school. Monday morning, a powerful message was being broadcast via The Today Show. It was Kathy Lee Gifford talking about the passing of her husband, Frank, and all the things he loved about life. She spoke of his upbringing and how his love for God was a love like no other. She also talked about his stone and how his life was forever changed once this stone came into his life.

I urge you to please watch the video below. I was so fortunate to find the segment from The Today Show online via YouTube and be able to share it with the world via my blog! It's really powerful stuff y'all! Just please, watch it all the way to the end, and you'll understand exactly what I'm talking about.

My life may be far from perfect, and I'm not quite sure what all God has in store for me; but I can tell you this, I do have one love and one passion that surpasses most others in my life. I don't quite know if this is my only stone, but I do know my heart smiles when I think about throwing my stone as hard as I can and impacting lives in the process.

You see, I'm a Leader. Not your normal everyday business leader. I'm a Cubmaster and Summer Camp Director through the Boy Scouts of America. My husband and I run our local Cub Scout Pack here in our hometown. This is one of the only things in my life I have ever really been able to pour my heart into without getting ridiculed or told I just don't fit in. I have parents actually tell me that I do a good job. I have kids eager to come back and want to learn. I have friendships that mean more to me that some I grew up around my entire life. I have a purpose, and it is to teach little ones that they are important ... that they do matter ... that life is a great big ole place and they should enjoy it! Yeah, Cub Scouting is a lot of camping and trips and tons of other things, but it is also deeply rooted in loving yourself and standing up for yourself. I have the ability to teach boys (and girls considering our meetings are family based) that they are all self-confident, good-hearted leaders. I have the ability to change their world and change my own too.

Like I said, this might not be my only stone ... but I'm good with starting here! I plan to throw it and throw it well into molding as many young minds as I can. I love working with children, and I honestly cannot think of a better place to exhaust myself ... well, other than learning more about God and the Good Book obviously.

I'll share more soon :)
But for now, I think this is a pretty swell place to start :)

Talk with everyone tomorrow!

With Love,

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Whoa ... It's August!

Holy Toledo-Breath!! It's August!!! I guess those of you stopping in upon occasion thought I totally pulled an epic-fail on this blog, huh? Well, let's just say my life has been no short of perfect since January, and well, blogging just didn't ever get pulled into the equation. I guess we all have times like that where we totally intend to do things and then just never do them!

So, what's new?

I got to thinking about my little ole blog alot here recently. I have missed writing more than you know, but that devil, he's a feisty character! Actually, my life has been hectic and busy, busy - but that ole devil man plays a big part too!

I'm going to try to do better for myself. I'm actually going to try and take some time each morning (maybe each evening too) and dedicate it to some "me" time! In that time, I want to write to everyone. I want to get whatever message that's in my heart out on paper. I want to be that girl that's stuck inside of me that I have failed so many times in the past ... she needs to come forward and stop hiding in the shadows thinking no one will hear her cries.

I do, in fact, have a post that will probably take me all day to scribe even on this laptop that I will be sharing tomorrow. It's not that I don't have time to write it or share it now - it's just going to take a lot of courage to get it all out there like my heart is calling me to do. So, if you stumble across my path today, please come back tomorrow, I promise, it will be here waiting.

Talk with everyone tomorrow!

With Love,

Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 - Faith - Family - Football

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Hello to all my new friends {and returning favorites} out there in cyber space! 2015 is finally here!!! While most folks are recuperating from New Years fun, my hubby and I are hanging out in the living room watching college football bowl games; and of course, rooting for the teams not in the favorites to win the SEC Championship. No Bama lovers in this house! Haha!

I have so much that I want to say with the beginning of this year, so much that I want to do! I have made it my personal journey to share some sort of inspiration with everyone each and every day. Now, this will not come in the forms of sermons or religious quotes - it will come from my heart. You see, I have been living my life and nothing more. Just waking up, fumbling through the day, then going to sleep at night without feeling like I have really accomplished anything. I want to be so much better than that. I want to have a bigger heart and be a better person for myself and my family. I know that's something that sounds so simple; but yet it is so hard to achieve.

With this year, I want to be the person that Pays It Forward more. I want to be a better friend. I want to keep moving in the {positive} position of paying my way out of debt. I want so much small stuff, but the most important things I want is to be a better mother and a better wife. I have so many flaws. I lose my temper so easily. I want all of these [negative] things to end. I believe it's possible - I just gotta have a little patience and a lot of Jesus. I think everyone needs those things at all times, but I know I need them more-so now than ever if I want to change my ways.

I guess it's easy to see that this year is going to have a lot in store for me. I'm ready to embrace what this world has to throw at me and give it right back! So, if you are the praying type - prayers would be much appreciated as I start this chapter in my life. I hope this journey will bring me new friends and tons and tons of memories. Let's do this together y'all!

Talk with everyone tomorrow!

With Love,